That was the best summer of her life. She was 15, she had had a boyfriend for about 4 months, she new now that she didn’t like to be controlled by anyone, she like to feel that he wanted to be with her and not control her. She thought that having a boyfriend was get to know the person, discover new things, things which she was curious because she couldn’t ask anyone. Her friends her age may not understand why she was like that, her sisters would tell her off, as for her mum she would never ask, she was the baby girl and she found out later in life the she would always going to be seen as the baby girl by her parents and the baby sister by her sisters. Even her brothers that were younger than her treated her as the baby girl of the house. She loved when her cousins would come to spend the summer that everyone would forget about her, because they become the baby girls instead of her.
She was going everywhere with her friends to meet her now boyfriend,’the love of her life’. His name Leonardo, but every would call him Leo. He was athletic, he had this beautiful black and a bit curly but not much,hair; black eyes, quite muscular body for a 15 year old, he still had braces on his teeth (her ones came off in May 79), he smelled amazing and his voice and accent was what she most liked about him. He was funny, and in front of everybody he would hide his shyness being stupid.
When came carnaval she was literally on top of the world. She had a boy from Rio as her boyfriend and he was going to spend carnaval with her. All her insecurities and feeling that she wasn’t pretty was put aside as now, in her head the most gorgeous guy she knew was her boyfriend.
At that time the carnaval for her was going to the club where they had carnaval parties. It was safe and the best thing it was next to where she lived. So she could be there before the parties started and she would stayed all the time at her friend’s family table, because Leo was there and she was living the first love of her life.
Than summer finished, he went back to Rio and she stayed back. They went back to write letters and sometimes talk to him over the phone. She was counting the days to next summer when he was going to come back.
Than, around June, everyone was making plans to travel on the mid year holidays but she didn’t even thought about it because she knew her parents wouldn’t let her go on her own, and she didn’t want to have to travel with her sisters. But her friend, Leo’s cousin invited her to come with her to Rio and stay at Leo’s house, his parents really, and she was over the moon but when she told her parents they didn’t even heard her saying the whole plan, they just said no.
She was devastated, everyone was going to Rio and she was going to stay back because she was dating the love of her life. She didn’t give up, and she started asking every one to ask her parents. The problem was that they were protecting her. How she could stay in the same house as that boy and don’t give in to temptation? But so many people asked that her parents couldn’t say no anymore. And she was the happiest girl in the world, spending her holidays in Rio, seeing him everyday.
The went everywhere together, they always found a way of having time alone, and at those times were very charged up. She knew she couldn’t go all the way, she was scared and she didn’t want people to think bad of her, but she was so attracted to him that she would let him caress her breast, at first over her clother, but the more time they spent together she resisted less, and she couldn’t talk to anyone about it because no one would understand and she was pretty much certain that at that age she couldn’t have had those desires for a boy.
When she had to go back to her city she was devastated because deep down she knew that soon she wouldn’t have that anymore.
She went back and started again the letters and counting the days for summer. And finally she knew when he was going to arrive, and she was anxious. The day he arrived she woke up burning with fever, her mum took her to the doctor and he didn’t find anything wrong with her. No pains, nothing, just the high temperature. The doctor sent her home with some prescription for the fever and told her mom to observe if she feel pain. The fever stayed with her for 3 days and she knew why her body was reacting this way. She knew he was going to split up with her, she could hear in his voice over the phone, and when she finally got over the fear of loosing him, the fever had gone, he came over to her house and he told her what she knew already.
She was sad because she lost ‘the love of her life’ but she was young and she was going to have fun that summer. And carnaval came again and for the first time in her life she got very drunk behind her parents back, and on her drunk state she told him she loved him and the only thing she wanted was for him to be happy. Than she told his new girlfriend to make him happy!
Her First Love
