She was about to become 20 years old, she was enjoying her new life as a student at university, dance was still a big part of her life and little by little she was losing all the weight she gained when she spent 6 months living in America.
In Brazil the school holidays are a bit different and in July they have a winter break, and it became a longer break as the professors were on a strike and for her it was just a longer holiday. For some reason she doesn’t know, Leo’s brother came to her city at that time, they normally just went on the summer. She loved it because people from Rio were more open minded and sometimes she felt too alone not being able to be herself because her friends wouldn’t understand what would go on her mind.
That winter was feeling like summer. She was out every night, and they would always finish the night in the same bar. Sometimes they stay the whole night on that bar. Sometimes sitting on a table or sometimes just standing by the bar. The music there was always good and the people that came were always the coolest.
One of those nights that they stayed there for the whole night, just by the bar she met him. His name was Ike, he was from Rio and he just had that sweet talk very typical of ‘cariocas’ (people born in Rio). She found him interesting and felt flattered that he was chatting her up, but she wasn’t interested in him because he was much older than her and that was scary. She was still 19 and he was 28.
The next night they decided to go somewhere else and just stop by in the regular bar in the end of the night, and as soon as they arrived she noticed he was there, so she picked a table, that way she didn’t need to be talking to him. They ordered the drinks when they arrived there and when it was served there was an extra one for her. The same cocktail she was drinking the night before and with it was a little message saying: Thank you for last night. She didn’t understand as the night before nothing had happened, but she guessed he wanted to mess with her head.
She had her drink and didn’t even look in his direction. Than one of her friends come back from the toilet with another message from him saying: will you go out with me tomorrow? She kept ignoring him.
After that night she stopped going out for a few days, maybe he would forget about her, or maybe even meet somebody else and leave her alone. She didn’t understand why this guy was after her, why he was interested on someone so plain like her.
The night she decided to go out again she asked her friends not to go to the bar they all liked, she didn’t want to meet him again. They had a great night, she was relaxed and no sign of him, and than they decided to go to a night club to finish the night and to her surprise he was there, but he was with someone else and she felt relief, until when she was at the bar, the barman gave her a drink, she gave it back to him saying that she didn’t order it, the barman gave it back to her and pointed at him. She felt annoyed; she grabbed the drink, walked over where he was with the girl and gave the drink to her saying that the barman made a mistake and left. Didn’t even look at him.
A few days later she got fed up of hiding from him and went to the bar with her friends, after all this was her city and she wasn’t going to stop going to the places she wanted because of him. That night she sat at the bar with her friends and decided to go through as much cocktails as she could handle, and her and one of Leo’s cousins started ordering them, by the time he arrived at the bar she was quite relaxed and he made a subtle move, started talking with her friends and like that she felt that he could be an ok guy. They started talking and he, without any warning, held her face and kissed her on her lip, she tried to push him away, but she stopped the fighting very fast. When they stopped kissing, they just stare at each other, he had a cheeky smile on his face, and she was serious. She gave him her phone number but didn’t know if she wanted him to phone her.
In the beginning they just met sometimes and kissed. He had this way of talking her into wanting him, but when she was away from him she didn’t like the idea. Sometimes she went to the night club and he was there with the other girl, and she didn’t care, and he would go mad because she didn’t care. The less she wanted him, the more he wanted her. He started coming to the beach to meet her, and sometimes she would go to his apartment and they would just get heavy on the kissing, and his hands exploring her body. And she loved that, but she couldn’t go all the way, she didn’t like him enough for that, she just liked the way he teased her and made her feel sexy. He made her whole body tingle. But when things would start to get too much for her, she had to go, her dad’s driver would come and pick her sisters and she from the beach and take home. She was having a chance to do it with someone that was going to teach her a lot. One afternoon, she just had passed her driving test, she had the car and he had phoned her asking her to come over to his place. She got the car and went. He was surprised to see her there. He invited her in, she sat there on this only little sofa in the living room. He sat next to her and he kissed her, and that was so good, all those sensations, she knew it wasn’t love, but that was what she wanted.
After a while he took her by the hand and they went to the bedroom, slowly he started taking her clothes off, first was the t- shirt, he kissed her neck her shoulder and the feel of his hot lips on her skin made her full of desire, he kissed her and his hands were unzipping her shorts, which suddenly without her noticing, was on the floor, and he, very carefully made her step out from them. She could feel his hand reaching inside her knickers, they were moving slowly around the lips of her vagina open them and revealing a very wet area, which made him groan and press his hardness against her. With his free hand, he grabbed one of her hands and placed it on his hard on, she didn’t know what to do, and he whispered in her ear to caress it. She was shy and slowly she started moving her hand, she felt it very hot on her hand, and while his fingers played with her his other hand helped her to free him of his underwear than suddenly she was holding his pennis, she froze for a moment, she knew that if she continued she couldn’t stop anymore, she had to go all the way. She was ready for it but she wasn’t sure he was the one. He noticed that she was cooling off, he started whispering in her ear that he wanted her, that he knew she wanted him, she was all wet. She held on harder to him and he kissed her, before laying her on the bed he took her bra and her knickers off, in a way that she couldn’t even feel it. Than he lay her on the bed and instead of laying on top of her he laid next to her and started kissing her and caressing her and suddenly he was on top of her rubbing his pennis against her clitoris and she felt like she was going to explode, than he stopped and started penetrating her very slow, she told him to stop as it was hurting, he took it away, kissed and caressed her until she was relaxed again than he asked her if she wanted to try again, she didn’t say anything because again she wasn’t sure, and he saw that in her eyes, gently he kissed her eyes than her lips, slowly opening her lips with his tongue and again she was relaxed. Very gently he laid on top of her and rubbing his hardness against her she opened her legs and very gently he tried again, she was very wet and with a little push he manage to start ease his way into her. It was very painful but it was pleasant as well, it felt as if her insides were being ripped but she was having so much pleasure as well that she asked him to keep going slowly, she thought maybe if he penetrate her all the way, the pain would go away and the pleasure would be even better. He did as she asked him, for her disappointment the pain got much worse, but she didn’t push him away, she tried to concentrate on the pleasure as she felt she was wetter, and on his pleasure when he exploded.
He relaxed on top of her, being gentle, he kept kissing her and slid off out of her and to her side. She felt relief , her insides still throbbing, but not of pleasure. She didn’t know how she felt, she knew she didn’t love him, she knew he did things to her that made her melt but she wasn’t sure if she wanted to have that pain again.
After a while laying there with him at her side, talking something that she wasn’t listen, she decided she needed to go home and that’s when she realised all that wetness was blood. She went to the bathroom under the shower and let the water run. She felt numb and now she knew that her life was going to change, she just lost her virginity, and from now on she could let her desires take over her!
Her First Time
